Subtitles...

And yes, I survived the holiday. (Which, if you know me, just really isn't my thing. At all.)

But on to the important stuff. Like my obsession with subtitles. I love subtitles. A lot.

As in, I get sad when I watch a movie that doesn't have a subtitle option. Unfortunately, I can only read English, so having other languages as subtitles, while helpful to other people, just doesn't cut it for me. I even like when shows have subtitles. I have a theory (one of my many) on why I love subtitles so much. I believe it's because I love to read, so much, that even when I am watching a show or movie, I would prefer to read the dialogue, over watching. Plus, I think it adds to the overall affect of movies. For instance, if I didn't understand what someone said, I would almost always be able to catch it with subtitles. Without rewinding, or whatever we call it nowadays.

Basically, subtitles are fun. Can you dig it?

"I guess it takes awhile...

for someone to really disappear..." This is a lyric from a song, Goodbye, by Patty Griffin. I am, of course, listening to this song because I am sad. And sadness always wants more sadness. At least for awhile. Tonight, my heart hurts. Partially because I feel betrayed. Maybe just by life and circumstance. Mostly because when my heart hurts, I want to turn to one person that is not here anymore. I miss her. After almost 4 years, I still miss her. Especially when I need her, like tonight when the tears won't stop falling and all I want is to call Gram and tell her the whole story. And hear her advice. And stop the tears.

I miss her.

I am blessed by so many friends and close family who have loved and supported me in the almost 4 years that she has been gone. But it does not make me miss her any less. I still do. And the tears still have not stopped.

Study Break!

Tonight is an off night. No more studying. No more paper-writing. No more headaches, backaches and break downs...why did I decide to go back to college again?? Just kidding.

It hasn't been that bad. But I do need a break. So this evening I reserve the right to do nothing. I'll throw in some movie watching and a bath for good measure.

1 in 3 of my finals are done, and the next two are next Monday and Tuesday. I'll study this weekend. Let's hope that by Tuesday at 5pm I haven't pulled all my hair out/had a mental break down/threw tantrums because I'm super whiny.

That Sister-Thing

Until recently, as in the last 4 years or so, I had two sisters (half, but who cares?). And then I found out I also had a half-brother that I did not know about and have never met. And then my mom got remarried and Bam! Instant-Brady-Bunch-here-are-four-more-kids-to-add-to-the-craziness. And then, my dad decided to have another baby, so I now have another half-brother that is 23 years younger than I am. And out of all this mess, I love all of these kids. (This has also deterred me from having any of my own, big surprise) 

But, I can say that there is something about sisters......If you have sisters, you might know what I am talking about. Maybe it is that really, I was raised with sisters, and all of the others came when I was basically grown. Or maybe it's That Sister-Thing. Perfectly illustrated by this here picture. (It's an old one)

I would do anything for this one. She's a keeper. 

Am I Just Old-Fashioned??

So I might just be old-fashioned, but I am ALARMED at the new trend of people making their babies a Facebook page. I am definitely not trying to offend anyone, and no, I do not have any children. But a Facebook page for a 2 year old??? Really? It is one thing to post a ton of pictures and funny things babies do, I get it. It's easier for grandparents/aunts/uncles/friends to keep up-to-date with all the Baby Pat rolled over/took his first step/smiled moments. But do these babies really need their own Facebook page?? I can say that out of my 8 brothers and sisters (all 18 or under), the only ones that have Facebook are the ones that are in high school. Which is acceptable, in my opinion. I'm personally not okay with my 10 year old sister having her own profile, but if my mother let it happen, I could respect it. Now, I almost researched this here topic, but decided against overwhelming the masses with my plethora of statistics...but I'll leave you with one. 5% of all babies and toddlers have their own social networking account. (I got this little statistic from this here article...enjoy!)

http://www.sync-blog.com/sync/2010/10/when-is-it-too-early-for-kids-to-have-a-social-network-account.html

5% folks. That's a lot of babies and toddlers.